If you can’t take the drama, you shouldn’t even be in a relationship.
I’ve been depressed for the longest time. I’ve been acting like the world’s weight is on my shoulders and that nobody understands me. Some of that may be true, but I have tons of people who are there for me, who have been trying to keep me happy and make me smile. All this time I’ve been mourning a loss, because I never really took the time to appreciate what I had, but what’s to say that I’m not still doing that to other people? I have a great group of friends, one’s that I know will never let me down or that I will be friends with until I die. I’ve made it this far, and I know that I can keep going.
Saturdays have become my favourite day of the week. I met up with the cotillion fam and we dance and have fun. Each week gets better an better (except for yesterdays boot camp LOL). And to bad Roman wasn’t there. Nonetheless, it was super fun. I didn’t even plan on going swimming, but oh wait, i was thrown in, with all my clothes on, and nothing to change into…..FML. Haha but i went home and got some more clothes so i could swim. AND I DIDN’T GET DARKER! yesssssss (Y). So happy about that. I have to say that my favourite game was STAIRS. So violent, but so fun :) Anyways, my weekend was greaat, nothing could change that, not even you.
I'm telling you, you don't want to fall for me. You don't even want to be with me. I'm terrible in relationships. I'm horrible at keeping in touch with people. I'll never call you. I change my mind way to much and I love going out with my friends. I do bad things, but I get good grades. I can't settle. I've fallen in love and had my heart broken. I lost the pieces so don't bother trying to put them back together, that's something I need to work on by myself when I'm ready -- and I'm not ready. I'd flirt with other boys, but you're my first and last thoughts. Don't worry, I'd never cheat on you but I'd make you worry. You don't want to fall me, but I'm falling for you and if that's okay with you, I want to change all of those things about me just to be with you.
I always look forward to saturdays simply because I get to see a handful of my closest friends. We’ve been gathering with each other since March? and we’ve honestly become a big family - I love them ALL.
Today was honestly one of the funnest times I’ve had in a long long time. After practice a…
so who was the girl who got thrown in with all her clothes?
“Sometimes it’s easier to feel like you’re the only one in the world who’s struggling, who’s frustrated or unsatisfied or barely getting by, but the feeling is alive and if you just hold on. Just find the courage to face it all for another day. Someone or something will find you and make it all okay, because we all need a little help sometimes. Someone to help us hear the music in our world, to remind us that it won’t always be this way, that someone is out there and that someone will find you.”—One Tree Hill (via raindropsonredroses) (via yourfingertipsacrossmyskin)
No girl should be treated like shit & pushed to the curb without a reason. No one's perfect. Girls get mad, they get sad, & if they're jealous, that just shows you how much she wants you. All the good girls are the ones that get taken advantage of. When in reality, they should be treated like a queen, but instead they settle for less, for one simple guy that hurts her everyday & yet she never loved him less.
I can’t even begin to explain how much my heart is aching right now. The minute something makes me laugh or smile, I shut myself down, remembering all of the bad things. I know, I know ‘keep smiling, you’ll move on eventually’ but nobody understands. Do you know what it feels like to have somebody…
dont go reminiscing about the rough patches. stay strong:) he’s a bitch anyway even my sister said that! lmaooo i love you big sister<3 right now your saying those stuff cuz you just got soo used to being around someone but eventually youd have the urge to keeping walking. if he dont see you by now he never will.
911) I tried moving on, then you talked to me, and i fell for you all over again. I know i shouldn't love you, because of everything that happened, but i can't help it. I love you so much it hurts. It hurts more to know that i let go of you, and everything we had, because you stopped caring.
Somewhere there is another girl prettier than you, smarter than you, taller than you, skinnier than you. Another girl somewhere is more outgoing, more laid back, more interesting, more athletic. Another girl somewhere is not you. You may not be perfect, but someone someday will think you are. He will love you for each and every imperfection and flaw. He will wait all day just to see you and stay all night just to hold you. To him, you will be more than perfect, you’ll be the love of his life.
“Trust me, I really know what it feels like to lose you. Coming back to this was not an easy thing for me to do. It still hurts sometimes to know that you love me this much but hurt me that much before. But the thing is, I will always be here. I will always miss you the moment you leave and even more when I hear your voice on the phone and imagine you beside me. I love you more because I’ve lost you once and it’s not something I can deal with again. So please just let me miss you all the time and let me love you more than ever.”—(via nikkaaquino)
Find a real guy: A guy who won't give up on you, who will keep chasing you 'til he gets you, who will keep doing the things he did when he was chasing you, who will fight for you and your love, a guy who will not only tell you he loves you, but shows it.
“You don’t choose who you fall for, you just fall. And you get this person who is all wrong, yet so right at the same time. You know that you like them so much, except sometimes they drive you completely insane and no one can explain it. The reason it’s so confusing is because it’s love, and if you didn’t have any challenges, what would be the point?”—(via idareyoutoclickthis) (via nikkaaquino)
16379.) im scared of the future. im scared ill be a nobody. im scared nobody will love me. im scared ill fail. im scard ill get traped and wont be able to submurge from under the water. im scared nobody will hold my hand when i need it most. im scared to think any further now..
I just want you to talk to me. I just want you around. It doesn’t have to be the way it used to be…at least I don’t think. I don’t know, I’m confused. All I know is I don’t want you to walk away. I don't want you to leave me.
“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”
“Trust me, I know how it feels. I know exactly how it feels to cry in the shower so no one can hear you. Waiting for everyone to be asleep so you can fall apart. For everything to hurt so bad that you just want it all to end. I know exactly how it feels.”—(via raindropsonredroses) (via yourfingertipsacrossmyskin)
I can’t even begin to explain how much my heart is aching right now. The minute something makes me laugh or smile, I shut myself down, remembering all of the bad things. I know, I know ‘keep smiling, you’ll move on eventually’ but nobody understands. Do you know what it feels like to have somebody tell you that they don’t want you anymore more? Do you know what a relief it felt like to know that I wouldn’t ever have to go through that girl-likes-boy chase? No, you don’t. I can’t help but feel like crap. I don’t just want highschool to end, I want my life as it is to end. I want to go drown myself in my tears or go underwater and never come up for air. I never wanna meet someone new, and I know that I never will. I’m hurting so much. Life has been so unfair to me, but what do I do now? Maybe it really is better to be alone, cause you’ll know that no one would ever hurt you. Now I have to live with the fact that I’ll never hold your hand again and I’ll never feel your arms around me. I don’t know where I feel safe anymore or where I would run away to to find comfort.
NTS: Fairytales don’t exist in real life, so stop looking for your prince charming.
“Some women choose to follow men, and some women choose to follow their dreams. If you’re wondering which way to go, remember that your careers will never wake up and tell you that it doesn’t love you anymore.”—Lady Gaga (via itskatherinemae) (via nikkaaquino)
“We feel lonely, sometimes to the point of tears, but we don’t let those tears come because we are not supposed to cry. Or how we feel a surge of love for a partner but we don’t say anything because we’re frozen with the fear of what those words might do to the relationship.”—Mitch Albom (via eletheowl) (via nikkaaquino)